I am going to blog again.
Well, not really blogging much, I’m just going to write down how i feel going through life.
See, i am right now stuck in a “relationship” (I’m not in any way in a relationship with this dude- i just don’t know how to describe this thing i have with him right now.
Yeah, what’s going on now is that I am an option, for when he is bored, or for when no one else replies his text, he’ll text me. He’ll talk to me. And that, only if he feels like it.
The worst part of this whole shit is that i allow this to happen. I let him do that to me. I don’t know why and I hope by writing again, I become clear of how I feel about this and hopefully, I can find exactly what I need from this shit. For some reason I refused to put this to a stop, I want to take my time to understand myself for why am I doing this.
I like him? Yes, I do, I told him too. Although now, I have reached anger (I’m glad- it’s about time), I don’t seem to want to quit it yet. I’m addicted to his attention? Hmmm maybe. But the whole last week I did not get any text from him, I am adapting well to not seeing his name on my phone’s notifications. I was used to seeing his name there because we used to text non stop but I guess he got bored maybe.
So other than to just write, to understand myself, i want to blog again because I want this to be a medium or platform to channel out this overflowing feels, which I know not everyone can handle, can accept, can understand. I decided to make this blog public too, so that whoever reads my blog can share with me similar experience because I know I am not the only going through “relationship problems” with someone I am not in a relationship with. I know I am not the only one. And I hope my writing could do some good to my audience, as how instagram poems has helped me understand how I feel. I sort of found a new strength. It may not be much, but it’s still helpful.
I’ve written quite a number. Just random thoughts and feels, I will transfer them here very very soon.
If you’re reading/ have read any of my entry(ies), feel free to write to me and let me know how you feel about it, or if you have anything to say (or advice cough) leave your comments here.
Take care.
See, i am right now stuck in a “relationship” (I’m not in any way in a relationship with this dude- i just don’t know how to describe this thing i have with him right now.
Yeah, what’s going on now is that I am an option, for when he is bored, or for when no one else replies his text, he’ll text me. He’ll talk to me. And that, only if he feels like it.
The worst part of this whole shit is that i allow this to happen. I let him do that to me. I don’t know why and I hope by writing again, I become clear of how I feel about this and hopefully, I can find exactly what I need from this shit. For some reason I refused to put this to a stop, I want to take my time to understand myself for why am I doing this.
I like him? Yes, I do, I told him too. Although now, I have reached anger (I’m glad- it’s about time), I don’t seem to want to quit it yet. I’m addicted to his attention? Hmmm maybe. But the whole last week I did not get any text from him, I am adapting well to not seeing his name on my phone’s notifications. I was used to seeing his name there because we used to text non stop but I guess he got bored maybe.
So other than to just write, to understand myself, i want to blog again because I want this to be a medium or platform to channel out this overflowing feels, which I know not everyone can handle, can accept, can understand. I decided to make this blog public too, so that whoever reads my blog can share with me similar experience because I know I am not the only going through “relationship problems” with someone I am not in a relationship with. I know I am not the only one. And I hope my writing could do some good to my audience, as how instagram poems has helped me understand how I feel. I sort of found a new strength. It may not be much, but it’s still helpful.
I’ve written quite a number. Just random thoughts and feels, I will transfer them here very very soon.
If you’re reading/ have read any of my entry(ies), feel free to write to me and let me know how you feel about it, or if you have anything to say (or advice cough) leave your comments here.
Take care.
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